(Nicole)

"(Nicole) had this...special status. More like a special power. And I couldn't match it...and I couldn't find anybody to replace it."

Many of us have Nicoles in our lives. Like a poisonous thorn in our side, she seeps into our veins and we can't seem to get rid of her. Even when we extract the flesh mangling impalement, some of the infection still remains.

Funny that I've often used the Nicole parallel to describe that one we shall not mention...because Adam called me yesterday and referenced a conversation he had recently with his ex, "Nicole" and compared it to this very movie scenario.

The thing is, Nicole causes us to be someone we are not. She devours our own personna and inspires us to be who she wants, not by her own request, but by her innate power over us, because we desire her attention so badly and will do anything to retain it. Even when we succeed, we are never good enough for her and it causes us to doubt ourselves. It's unhealthy and we deserve better.

Thankfully, I think most of the poisons are gone and the power has been demagnetized. I realized I have it pretty damn good, and I'm tired of holding an empty hope for a less than ideal candidate. I found my Erica. Or Matt. Or whatever...you get the point!!!

San Fransisco in 12 days!!!